Short Story: "Memories", a memoar from someone who lost his dearest most

Hai guys, i know it's been a while. But, i came up with another story, a short story to be exact. It's my short story in English, i hope y'all enjoy it.

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Memories

 
I remember, that time we walked together, same road, hand by hand, smiled. As usually we were going out to the town. The sky was bright like your face. I could see your golden eyes shinning perfectly. I always admire your golden eyes, truly.

We were friend since childhood. In my mind, i still memorize you. Skinny, pale skin, also golden eyes and hair; tried to smile as best as you can and then say hello to me shyly.

I still remember, your smile, your smell that always made me drunk. I don't know why, i just loved your smell, it was make me comfortable and remind me of home. And I guess I miss home, you.

Do you remember our first kiss? i do always remember. I brought you neckless and suddenly you kissed me. Frankly, it was a little bit awkward. But, honestly i liked it and i loved it. I could see your eyes, your eyebrows, your nose, your lips, and your blushed cheeks after you broke the kiss. And i wanted more, so i kissed you back. Now i could feel your soft lips against mine, my hands touched the golden hair.

We slept in the field full of dandelion. I made you dandelion crown, it was beautiful. It looks perfect on your head. I could smell fresh grass, fresh air, dirt, and you. Stared into the infinity horizon, heard the birds singing, felt the winds blow our hair. Holding your hand and kissed it. You giggled and I smiled. I kissed you again, it was emotional kiss. It was like i won't ever let you go.

Our relationship was wonderful, I can see it among my memories. It's such a shame that we were apart. I thought you're the one. You could be mother of my children, but it wasn't easy. I do regret that I walked away, let you go.

I don't why I still remembering you. Perhaps I can't move on. Or perhaps i still love you and the memories still remains. It's hurt and so funny, I cry and smile at the same time. I wish I never leave you behind. I wish I could turn back time and make it right, but it's impossible.

I could be knocking your door, telling how sorry i am. Just give me one more chance, I swear i won't hurt you anymore, I won't leave you. But, now you're married. I smiled that you're happy, I wish that your husband treat you well, never hurt you, always besides you. Don't ever like me, i'm an asshole. I know you knew it and i'm sure you might be laugh at me now.

I'm sorry that I couldn't wiped your tears. I'm sorry I walked out instead fighting for us. I'm sorry that i'm being so stupid, selfish, and arrogant bastard. I'm a miserable man, I realize you deserve a better man.

All I wanna to say is, thank you. Thank you that you loved me. And you'll always in my heart, no matter what.